Okay, much as I hate 2 admit it, I think I'm losing my writer's touch. Why??? That's because, I can't seem to write ANYTHING worth reading! It's stupid, really. Since I'm a CWJ student, but its just that, I seem to be suffering from writer's block! AND WHAT'S WORSE, is that, I don't know if this is JUST a writer's block, OR if circumstances were different I might even be losing it ENTIRELY and permanently! Heaven knows I can't even construct a perfect sentence these days! How awful! I mean, for me. Because writing is my first love, my very being, my passion! SO why is this happening?? Everytime I think of something good, I always try to write it, but that doesn't seem to be working because the written piece seems like the more boring (and maybe even hundred times duller) version of what I've thought of! Is this because of emotional stress? Heck! I don't even know if I'm under stress right now. I know what I should be doing, I should be practicing! But how could I? I don't even seem to have any ideas left inside my brain. I don't know, I don't know what's been happening! And sometimes, I go through my old journals and short stories, even my poems and they have this certain "charm" which I couldn't capture anymore with my present compositions. It's like, a different person wrote it! I know it sounds stupid, but that's what I feel! AND this, coming from me! The girl who loves writing so much, she even risks not listening to her physics teacher just so she can continue with whatever story she's working on at that time. I pity myself. The only thing which I am really passionate about is slipping and is nearly out of reach. My reach anyway. Sometimes, when I see people scribbling effortlesly, I feel a pang of jealousy. I used to be like that. But for goodness sake! I don't even know what they're writing about! It might even be their grocery list for tomorrow for all I care! SEE WHAT I MEAN???? I'M LOSING IT! This entry is completely non-sense! But I can't help it. I NEED to write. Even if that means terrible writing.